Sunday, April 25, 2010

The law of positivity?

I've had a rough past few months.  My best friend has been going through an incredibly rough time and it finally seeped into my life.  You can't save someone that doesn't want to save themselves no matter how much you try.  Long story short,  I decided to part ways with her this weekend :(  It was one of the hardest things I've had to do in a long time but, I felt I had no choice.  She's in a bad place and she doesn't see the destruction she carries with her.

Ive been so down lately.  Going back to work has been hard, I'm not doing my job I was doing before I got pregnant (not by choice). I've been assigned somewhere else and it's SO not fufilling. I worked hard to get my career.  Hopefully once the summer is over I'll be able to get back to it but the uncertainty is stressing me out.  I let that bleed into my home life too much.  I come home miserable and stressed out and my poor Hubs has taken the brunt of it.  Anyone who is married knows it's not all sunshine and rainbows.  Add two kids 2 and 1 years and it's just work after work after work.  It's easy to get overwhelmed.

I had a visit from an old high school friend last night to cheer me up and it made all my stress just go away for a night. Trust me, with the funk I've been in that's no small feat.  It made me realize that you have to surround yourself with the right people.   As much as it breaks my heart to say good bye to my friend I can only hope one day she is able to find what she needs to get back on track and maybe one day we will talk, but until then I have to remove myself.

I know I'm being general here and partly because I don't want it to be about her but more about positivity and moving forward.  It's so easy to slip into darkness and sometimes you dont even realize you're there til someone turns on the light.   I'm going to try to pay it forward and hopefully I can help someone else see there is positive things and help them look forward too.


Julie said...

I'm sorry to hear this, but I can definitely relate to how difficult it is to say goodbye to a friend. Keep positive and things will always get better. Let me know if you have any days off this summer and we can hang out with or without the kids. :) I love the wordle! Those are sooo cool!

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